Break Ups Are Over-Rated(Please Stop The Pity Party)…

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I am in no way trivializing your pain when your beloved says “they need space”. No. What I’m ranting(well, not ranting per se) about today is that the signs are always there. You might not want to see it but it is there. So please bear with me as I try to make you see through my glasses. Can you do that? Without judging me? Just try. Awesome!

You see it coming from a mile away.

You’ve been getting rejected in small but important ways for some time now(let’s be honest). Their body is further away from you when you sleep, they call with less frequency, they’ve been looking disinterested. Then you panic silently in your room and wonder what you can do to remedy the situation. Decide to be overbearing and shower them with love. “I love it when you wear that shirt. It’s my favorite shirt on my favorite person!!!” Feel distraught when they don’t reciprocate and become aware of the increasing gap between your feelings. Realize you’re going to be shacking up at Heartbreak Motel any day now—the one that’s on the corner of Disbelief and I Need A Drink.

OR don’t see it coming at all. Be happy in your relationship. Spend your last days together cuddling and feeling secure. Be confident that this person loves you just as much as you love them. The day before you get dumped, watch them make you spaghetti and play a DVD of The Notebook. Eat the spaghetti in comfortable silence, save for the occasional laughter at some joke. Just another regular night in with your boo!

It doesn’t matter if you see it coming or if you’re blindsided because your reactions will be the same. You will be stunned when they sit you down and tell you in so many words that they don’t want to make spaghetti with you, they don’t want to lie in bed next to you, they don’t want your penis, they don’t want your vagina. At some point, they did. At some point, that’s all they wanted, but those days are gone now. The heart is a fickle thing. You knew this, didn’t you?

It’s always hard when we’re perceived as not being good enough. We immediately go to that dark irrational place and think about the things we could’ve done differently. “Maybe if I braided instead of wearing weaves, maybe if I had sent him nudes last weekend, maybe if i had bought her that bag, we would still be together. Yes, that’s what must’ve set them over the edge into the “I Don’t Love You Anymore” category. This is illogical of course but it’s what your mind goes to when you’ve been rejected. What could you have done to get them to stay and want to eat spaghetti with you for the rest of your life?

We work so hard to be loved by others. We go to the right restaurants, spend money on nice haircuts and jeans, all so someone can maybe look at us and be like, “Okay, I want you.” Getting dumped by someone who used to want you feels like the ultimate rejection. What about you has changed? How can you go back to being the person they used to love? These questions don’t have answers. In the beginning, you think they do. You think there’s some secret you must find out but there’s not. It’s just life. People change, they fall in and out of love, and in a weird way, sometimes it truly has nothing to do with you.

The only thing you could mourn is being born a human instead of a penguin or a lobster. Those mate for life, right? Well, wouldn’t that be nice! Humans aren’t necessarily wired that way. So you can go cry about that, I guess. You can go cry about being born as a species that hurts others, that can change their feelings at the drop of a hat. Any other kind of mourning is fruitless. Because when they say things like, “It’s not you, it’s me”, they mean it even if they think they don’t mean it. Even if they dumped you because you were too needy or too kind or too mean, they were still able to change their feelings and abandon the relationship because that’s what people do.

At some point, you will probably do it too and then you will gain a larger understanding of how these things work. Honestly, that’s the best way to finally get over being dumped— dumping someone else. Understand how to fall out of love with someone. It will make you realize, “OMG, people are just big ol’ gbefs who get tired of someone and move on! I get it now. I can do this!” Call the person who dumped you and tell them this. They’ll think you’re insane and/or high, but whatever. At least you’re happy.

I don’t know if this would help you right now, i’m just ranting. FYI, i’m thinking of starting an agony aunt section. i really think I can give useful-ish advice. Try me okay? Send me an email at: lipglossmaffia@gmail.com

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